..of long days and even longer nights.

OMG!! I havent posted in soooo long!!! my schedule has been crazy!! I have to get up everyother day at about 5am to deliver bread because we cant afford anothe delivery person, then on those days I then return home anytime between 7:30 and 8am and take a nap till noon, after that i get up RP online chech email and getready for work and go in at 3pm. monday and tuesady ill usually finish work by 9 but i can go as late at 1am on fridays.

But enough about my work!! i miss all my friends alot!! i have made friends with the other extern but her is leaving on saturday and the new guy and i are still getting aquainted, but is seems promising for someone to talk to a bit. but i am getting used to being alone it can be relaxing i am getting in a lot of reading but still havent started my extern manual, maybe to day i will.
till next i type,
Raven

... of Allergies and irony.

allergy

noun

hypersensitivity reaction to a particular allergen; symptoms can vary greatly in intensity flour noun 1. fine powdery foodstuff obtained by grinding and sifting the meal of a cereal grain I AM ALLERGIC TO FLOUR!!!!!! yeah I have a skin allergy to flour!!! that means when ever I come in contact with flour I get a rash where ever I touch it.. the sad irony of this of course I make bread everyday, main ingredient in bread...FLOUR!!!!!!!!! that is all I have to say right now.

... of misery and guilt.

OK so I had the externship of a life time planned out. I would go work with my food idol and learn all her cake decorating secrets. As I have said in the past that fell through in the last possible minute, so I had to find another externship and I did. I HATE IT!!!!! I hate everything about it I didn't even like making bread at school!!!! but now i have to wake up every morning at 5 am to deliver the freaking bread and then stay up to almost midnight some nights to pack it away so I can deliver it in the morning. I am miserable because i have no choice but to do this for the next five months!!! i feel bad also because i am green with envy over anopther student in my class who is working with Ron Ben Isreal the cake decorator and is probably having fun in New York City!!!!!! I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY!!!!!!! that could have been me!!! I could be happy right now with any cake decorator. hell I'd be happy at costco if I was decorateing cakes!!!!

but then I look at my friend Jacob who cant find an externship and has to leave the program till he does. here I am at an externsite, with housing (but no pay), all about bread like he wanted an I cant do anything other than complaine about how much I hate it!!! i feel bad but at the same time dont i deserve to be happy?

... of diets and comicon!!!!

so i have been trying to lose weight for some time now and its finally working!!!!! yesterday i notices my arms look thinner and the day before that i had to find a belt so my pants wont fall off at work!!! I'm so happy about it its not even funny skinny here i cone and hopefully in time for comicon!!!!!

Yeah thats right I Raven Feathers am going to SanDiego Comicon!!!!!! so excited i cant even believe it. Like any good conner I of course am going in costume!!!! s here are my planned days

Day one: little kid geek - costume includes a red pillow case tied around my neck with a paper clip and shooting goggles for the ultimate nerd dome!!!
Day 2: Raven - this is one of my older costumes but a favorite
day 3: Gothic loitta - here is a link to the dress i'm thinking of getting
day 4: Alice Cullen - the baseball outfit ball and mit included

costumes are subject to change but as of now this is it and i'm so excited!!!!
Till i type again,
Raven

... of addresses and stories

here it is everyone I have an address so you can send me your love... and boxes of stuff.
1151 Skillman rd
Petaluma, CA 94952

or email me at Cakesquen76@aim.com (yes there is only one "e" in there its not a typo)

i readily await your messages!!!!

any way other than that please check out my other blog its a story that will be on going as long as i can keep it up so please follow along its gonna get good. so go over to thecovenreality.blogspot.com right now and read it!!!

Till next i type, Raven

P.S. I hate bread... actually i hate waking up at 6am only to find out i didnt have to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.. of ignorance and thoughts

first off yoplait apple turnover yogurt actually tastes like the filling of an apple turnover!!!!!


So yesterday in the bakeshop I started to get how to shape the bread dough. Granted it did stick to my hands from time to time but I am surprisingly getting better. I was even able to fill orders almost completely on my own. the only thing i cant really do yet is make starter, but I'm ok with that.


So I never thought i would feel like this and especially not at this age but you have no idea what I would give to be able to just hold Zac's hand right now.my house makes funny noises at night and when I walk the streets of downtown I just want him there with me it almost hurts physically to think about being apart for six months. when I left I sadly have to admit I thought the relationship would just fizzel outbut despite what I thought I has become stronger and more sincere. I miss him so I cant wait to see him.


lastly the little apple bits in the yogurt are really nasty.

..of joy and connections!!!

THERE IS NOW INTERNET IN MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i <3 stealing internet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is all more in the morning.