... of Allergies and irony.

allergy

noun

hypersensitivity reaction to a particular allergen; symptoms can vary greatly in intensity flour noun 1. fine powdery foodstuff obtained by grinding and sifting the meal of a cereal grain I AM ALLERGIC TO FLOUR!!!!!! yeah I have a skin allergy to flour!!! that means when ever I come in contact with flour I get a rash where ever I touch it.. the sad irony of this of course I make bread everyday, main ingredient in bread...FLOUR!!!!!!!!! that is all I have to say right now.

... of misery and guilt.

OK so I had the externship of a life time planned out. I would go work with my food idol and learn all her cake decorating secrets. As I have said in the past that fell through in the last possible minute, so I had to find another externship and I did. I HATE IT!!!!! I hate everything about it I didn't even like making bread at school!!!! but now i have to wake up every morning at 5 am to deliver the freaking bread and then stay up to almost midnight some nights to pack it away so I can deliver it in the morning. I am miserable because i have no choice but to do this for the next five months!!! i feel bad also because i am green with envy over anopther student in my class who is working with Ron Ben Isreal the cake decorator and is probably having fun in New York City!!!!!! I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY!!!!!!! that could have been me!!! I could be happy right now with any cake decorator. hell I'd be happy at costco if I was decorateing cakes!!!!

but then I look at my friend Jacob who cant find an externship and has to leave the program till he does. here I am at an externsite, with housing (but no pay), all about bread like he wanted an I cant do anything other than complaine about how much I hate it!!! i feel bad but at the same time dont i deserve to be happy?

... of diets and comicon!!!!

so i have been trying to lose weight for some time now and its finally working!!!!! yesterday i notices my arms look thinner and the day before that i had to find a belt so my pants wont fall off at work!!! I'm so happy about it its not even funny skinny here i cone and hopefully in time for comicon!!!!!

Yeah thats right I Raven Feathers am going to SanDiego Comicon!!!!!! so excited i cant even believe it. Like any good conner I of course am going in costume!!!! s here are my planned days

Day one: little kid geek - costume includes a red pillow case tied around my neck with a paper clip and shooting goggles for the ultimate nerd dome!!!
Day 2: Raven - this is one of my older costumes but a favorite
day 3: Gothic loitta - here is a link to the dress i'm thinking of getting
day 4: Alice Cullen - the baseball outfit ball and mit included

costumes are subject to change but as of now this is it and i'm so excited!!!!
Till i type again,
Raven