OK so I had the externship of a life time planned out. I would go work with my food idol and learn all her cake decorating secrets. As I have said in the past that fell through in the last possible minute, so I had to find another externship and I did. I HATE IT!!!!! I hate everything about it I didn't even like making bread at school!!!! but now i have to wake up every morning at 5 am to deliver the freaking bread and then stay up to almost midnight some nights to pack it away so I can deliver it in the morning. I am miserable because i have no choice but to do this for the next five months!!! i feel bad also because i am green with envy over anopther student in my class who is working with Ron Ben Isreal the cake decorator and is probably having fun in New York City!!!!!! I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY!!!!!!! that could have been me!!! I could be happy right now with any cake decorator. hell I'd be happy at costco if I was decorateing cakes!!!!
but then I look at my friend Jacob who cant find an externship and has to leave the program till he does. here I am at an externsite, with housing (but no pay), all about bread like he wanted an I cant do anything other than complaine about how much I hate it!!! i feel bad but at the same time dont i deserve to be happy?
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