OMG!!!

OK this is crazy I'm 18!!! I'm too young to have married friends!!!!! especially not ones I went to High school with!!!!!!! I'm freaking out... not quite sure what to make of it but a good friend from high school had her wedding recently and i feel she is messing up her life with the way she went about it. now she will never go to college she cant afford her basic medications (she has mental and physical disorders) and her sister is emotionally disturbed over the whole thing. if i were her i would have don't it differently but then again that's me and apparently i don't think like most people my age but then again maybe that's a good thing...perhaps I'm better off that way... or am i missing out on child hood? but is marriage something we should leave up to childish whims? or is it worth waiting till 30 and finding that perfect person, living more of your life before settling down? I don't know all i know is I'm not ready to settle down yet there is so much to do so many places to go and things to see. sure it would be nice to do it with someone but then gain what if they slow you down? am i being paranoid about relationships? a bit. but i am dating... but still i don't want to miss something. Living life till its fullest while I'm still brave enough to, Raven